I can't think of a title.

New Picture 22/08/10

Being tired.

So, being tired is hurting my grades and that is BAD since I am a senior this year. I seem to be so tired this year because I've got a new medicine and need to sleep at least one whole period. However, I've willed myself to stay awake until I head to bed and since it's Friday, I'll fall asleep to Ghost Adventures and probably sleep until 9am if I go to bed at 9:30pm.
On another note, I've began to look for a job for a plane ticket. I'm going to go see my beautiful steampunk lover, Elyzium. ♥ No seriously though, I need the money for spending money. Clothes, DVDs, CDs, PLANE TICKETS, books. I'm tired of mooching of my grandmum for extra spending money.

This post is long overdue

I never got around to write on here, but here I am. So I guess I'll start off by saying that school started and I do not like this at all. New, ANNOYING freshman and new teachers, most of who I do not like. However, it's only a matter of time until I graduate and am able to study in Japan like I've been wanting to. :)

Oh I've been hanging out with Kiersten a lot and she's agreed to move in with me when I turn 18, isn't that just amazing? I'm not being sarcastic, though.

-.-" filler post

I got my senior schedule today! :)

1 - Personal Finance : Smith
2 - Learning Skills : Hill
3 - Geog/Hist World : Weicht
4 - Geometry : Conwell
5 - Virtual Lab : Dewhurst
6 - US Government : Mathias
7 - English 12 : Hamilton

Picture is completely irrelevant,
but I love this picture of Gilbert (Prussia)

My Laminated List

A Laminated list is of the top 5 people, usually celebrities, with whom you could have sex with without repercussions, if the opportunity arose, regardless of whether you were in a relationship or not.

Mine are:
1. Till Lindemann
2. Lee Jinki (Onew from SHINee)
3. Leonardo DiCaprio
4. Bill Moseley
5. Terrance Zdunich

Right now, I'm beginning to despise Tumblr.

Why? Because everytime I click on it, there's something to fuck with my head and it's always something from Creepypasta. I like the people and the other posts, just not the scary ones. It really bugs the hell out of me because with paranoia as severe as mine, seeing something like that not only scares you but it'll stick in the back of your mind and eat away at you.

Tbh, I don't know how to handle stuff like that and I don't think I ever will. I mean, it's so hard to get rid of the thoughts, but making it not worry me is even harder.

Fun with Rachael(:

^We were walking around our old middle school!

^ Me:"you look indian"
Rae: "noooo, i don't wanna look like Mrs.Puliyanda!!"

^Take one: Failed.^Take Two: Mission Accomplished!!

^"WHAT!?!!?!"

^We were really hungry

^Someone really wanted to go back to school. xD

Since I can't think of anything to write about..

I will leave a picture here...

Relationships

On Facebook, I constantly see one particular breaking up and getting back together and to be honest, it's starting to infuriate me. These two are now juniors in high school and you'd think that he would have the common sense to move far away from her self-destructive yet slutty ways. However, he sticks around because he BELIEVES that she will love him back and they will be together forever.

They both need a swift, hard kick right in the arse. She is nothing but a common wretch and he is someone with great potential. Well, if he put down the ICP garb and focused on knowledge instead of "neden" (pussy) and faygo (a soft drink for those who don't know).

Mental Illnesses

I’ve seen on many sites where younger kids and some older teenagers think that mental illnesses make you edgy and interesting. Well, I’m going to tell you something about myself. I have been diagnosed with paranoia and depression, and you know what? I struggle to make it through the day, every single day. I know that it may seem like I’m whining and looking for attention, but I’m not. Usually I keep to myself about this, but all of this immature bullshit is getting to me.

So, have you ever had something happened to you days before but you forgot about it? Well, if it happened to me, it eats away at me and it scares me more and more every second. I couldn’t think of anything else BUT what happened. Like the Eiffel 65 song that apparently says, “Eat the body, Hide the body” when played backwards. Do you know what’s going through my head? Oh my god, what if I eat someone? I don’t want to go to jail, think of something else, think of something else. WHY CAN’T I THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE?! god, why am I thinking of cannibals? I have to stay away from people.

As for depression, sometimes just a little thing can get me down and then I cry and cry and think I’m not good enough. I’ll stay that way for days but the thought of what made me severely depressed never leaves.. Other times, I want to kill myself so the thoughts of black abyss that I lay in will disappear. I can’t explain to you what it’s like.. you’d honestly have to experience it.

Yeah, it’s pretty fucked up and I never understand why people WANT these illnesses.

Good Morning ._.

I've been up for about an hour and I'm still tired. Sad, right? D: Anyway, Tumblr still seems to be intact, so I take it that Slaughter didn't say much or nothing about it. So that's good. However, I've yet to see Zach and I'd really like to, but that probably won't happen.

I plan on going to the mall and reading books for hours because I'm that bored. I've got nothing to do until Monday when the "summer enrichment" crap starts for the GQE, and that's NEVER any fun. Math is my worst enemy and I wish it would go somewhere else. Then school starts on...well... August 12th, I believe. They put us back on a 7-a-day class schedule, meaning we have to use our lockers, which I've never used.

Well, tumblr is officially fucked.

It's been announced on Good Morning America's site that Jessi Slaughter and her parents will be speaking in an interview. That's just SO great, isn't it? Tumblr, another blogging site will be shown as a site full of rude nerds with no life trolling eleven year old girls. However, it isn't known that most of the threats and hurtful comments came from 4chan and Youtube.

This wouldn't be as bad if stupid trolls hadn't found all of her personal information (real name, phone number, address, school's address and phone number and all of her online profiles) and made it public, but that isn't the worst of it. They also ordered thousands of dollars worth of pizza and sent it to her house. They also sent death threats to her and her parents and her parents slept in shifts, too stupid to get a guard dog and some curtains. This is WAY out of hand.

Hey ☆

Well, my name isn't important, but I'm 17 years old.
I'm a proud German, aunt and writer. :)
I write crime fiction and male homoerotica.
Uhm, I'm pretty much a lover of Yaoi, Music & Kpop.
My favourite band is Rammstein and it always will be.
That's pretty much me in a nutshell I guess.
I hope you'll like my blog. [: